Are all parents controlling?

Wow I have not written in a while. So many things have happened since my last entry. You know, I am getting FED UP with being depressed. I can't stand moping around anymore. I want to go somewhere in life and I want God to use me to the best of his ability. I have wasted so much time living in fear and confusion. I am going to start getting organized and changing my attitude. I have a MAJOR attitude and anger problem. I have been so disrespectful to my parents and I have rebelled against them. I want to seek God in every decision I make, not just the big ones. I need to rely on him more than ever and I finally really realize more that I am dust without him, but with him I can be filled up with living water and be transformed and molded into something beautiful! God is love, Jesus was the finest example of love because of his sacrifice for me. He died for me/you, for my/your sins in the past and future. I want to know the love of Christ even though it surpases our understanding. I want to walk deeper than ever before. I am so SICK of letting myself live in pitty and sorrow. I am tired of letting myself drown in an ocean of problems, when I know very well that God has been stretching down his hands to me the entire time. Man! I feel so relieved. I have freedom in the name of Jesus. I have been bruised, but not crushed. I have been struck down, but NOT DESTORYED! I will walk in victory and love. I will choose to be happy and be kind to others. I will choose to change my actions for good. This has gone on for way too long. I WILL NOT get trampled on anymore. I renounce and repent every selfish and sinful act that I have ever commited. My eyes ARE the window to my soul and I WILL NOT let evil and preversion enter into their view! I will choose to dwell on holy and righteous things. I WILL NOT let fear hold me back, and these evil images in my head that have plauged me from the horror films that I watched in my youth MUST leave in the name of Jesus!

I am redeemed. I am beautiful inside and out. I am loved by my friends and family. I will go somewhere in life. I will be successful. I will receive healing for my back pains, they will not prevail. NO weapon formed against me shall prosper! I will be a warrior for Christ!

Thank you Jesus! Thank you God! Holy Spirit come and rain down on me. Be my comforter and help me do the things listed above. If I stumble, reassure me that things will work out.

Amen. Hallelujah!